2021.10.17 23:22 Darkdeeds91 Playing a hc necro on ps5 send me an invite to group
2021.10.17 23:22 asttark (Might be triggering) My thoughts about everything tough I still can't deal with my thanatophobia
I hate to think about losing consciousness and I REALLY can't deal with the thought that at some point of my life I'm just going to disappear completely. Not just me but my cats, my family, my boyfriend...literally everyone. This anguish I feel is commonly refuted with ridiculously uncomforting arguments like “you're not even going to feel anything or suffer at all”... Well I'm not stupid, I thought about it too many times already and that's PRECISELY where the problem lies.
I'm not Einstein or Da Vinci. Even if my existence lingered forever in the memory of humanity, I would still be a rotting body inside a box buried in sand. That must be why I'm always talking about being cremated but srsly what's the difference?
I get the same feeling when I think about where the hell I've been before I was born. Apparently, “I” was nothing until the day I developed a brain - this mass of nervous tissue, destined to stop functioning just like my lungs or my heart.
I spent a long time searching for some kind of belief or religion that would actually convince me about the existence of a reality in which it would be possible to maintain individual consciousness, maybe in a better world. I just wanted to believe in life as an exercise that would allow me to "evolve" into something better. But do I have any essence of spirit or soul? Why can't I accept that? Seriously, I tried so hard to have faith in something deeper but I'm probably too skeptical. I can't change the thought that there can't be knowledge without proof.
Despite everything, It's amazing to know that each one of us is unique. We all have distinctive features. We don't share the same thoughts, memories, skills, knowledges, hobbies or personal tastes; not even the smallest details of our fingerprints.
My remnant of hope lies in the fact that, as skeptical as I am, I'm still aware the human race is merely one of the 1.2 million species of animals trapped in this tiny globe. We're all like children trying to learn about our surroundings, trying to figure out some stuff but damn, did even you know that less than FIVE per cent of our planet’s oceans have been explored?
In short, we're all stupid insignificant beings, we don't have any certainty about (almost) anything; we have limited minds that cannot conceive the size of a star 'cause it's just too big for us too understand. There are actually colors our eyes can't see even though we know they exist (even some fish can see more colors than us bc of this ultraviolet thing). Now try to imagine any color besides the ones we know. We just CAN'T. There are so many things we don't know, so who are we to dictate what is possible or impossible, what is true and what is not?
Wouldn't it be too painful to live in a world of inequality and suffering just to cease to exist? Doesn't it hurt to hear that “death is not a big deal” or that “reality doesn't have to be fair”?
If death is releasing, why do I have to continue to exist? What's the point of living if existence is unfair and cruel, if anguish overcomes pleasure, if our fate is emptiness? What is the meaning of living in the present moment? How horrendous is it to lose a loved one and know that everything they once was will eventually deteriorate? Why do we keep working and fighting for an unrewarded factor?
My only hope lies in human ignorance. I get caught up in an infinite number of possibilities. I embrace what I cannot see or understand, like the colors I cannot contemplate or conceive and the things I still don't know.
I am not able to affirm nor deny the continuity of life. None of us are. I just hold on to the hope that the essence of goodness and equality will prevail, that the universe wont take away the virtue of thinking or feeling.
The only thing that comforts me is to know there's still a chance. It's so ironic to think like that when uncertainty still causes me so much pain; but I think it would be worse to know that everything ends in a decomposing body and a pile of dusty bones.
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2021.10.17 23:22 Liam2012---- Looking for a good Legacy of the Dragonborn Classic modlist/guide similar to Lexy's LOTD SE
So, I've kinda been wanting to get back into Skyrim recently, but unfortunately, my current PC can't run SE that well, meaning that I've had to rely on Skyrim Classic for now (at least until I can afford the necessary upgrades). Back when I had Skyrim SE on my old PC, I used to play it using Lexy's LOTD SE modlist/guide as a basis for my game.
I'm just wondering, but does anyone know a good modlist/guide similar to Lexy's LOTD SE that is meant for Skyrim Classic? It doesn't matter how many mods there are on it, but as long as it's detailed enough (like Lexy's LOTD SE), I'm good with it.
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2021.10.17 23:22 bunyodb Sudden toothache & headache 18M
When I try to lie on my back or make a quick head movement, I am having a sudden pain on the right side of my head and upper teeth for a brief moment. It started 2 days ago. I also got cold (or flu, I’m not sure) last week and I’m still coughing a bit. Why is this happening? Does it have anything to do with my cold/flu. I’m trying to fall asleep but the pain gets worse when I lie down.
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2021.10.17 23:22 LateRevue James Bondage (And Others)
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2021.10.17 23:22 Aly_Farroukh Hey guys! I worked on season 02 of LDR, on the episode “Snow in the Desert”. Check it out and let me know what you think!
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2021.10.17 23:22 AIandRobotics_Bot Facebook claims it uses AI to identify and remove posts containing hate speech and violence, but the technology doesn't really work, report says
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2021.10.17 23:22 Shweemm And what did we learn? Don't garden during a thunderstorm? Gooooood.
2021.10.17 23:22 SaturdayCasual my little brother’s birthday pulls from a celebrations ETB! moltres was first pack!
2021.10.17 23:22 StenHorstman Screen barely visible after almost two years. Is this a common problem?
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2021.10.17 23:22 livmatus Playing YouTube videos on "half"screen mode on ultrawide monitor
Hello. I've got a little problem here. I recently switched from Chrome to Safari. I was used to watch youtube videos in split view in such a way, that they only covered a part of my 3840x1200 (32:10) monitor. I simply tiled a windows to the right ... then chose which windows tiles to the left and entered "full" screen on that part of screen where the Chrome window with the video was.
However it appears that such a thing is not possible with Safari. It IGNORES that there is a split view and it just makes the video full screen as the only thing displayed on the monitor with huge black bars on the sides.
Is there a way to make it behave like I was used to with Chrome? PiP is not the answer as it only makes a small floatie with the video. Thanks in advance.
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2021.10.17 23:22 Warhead504 Stopped doing Grubhub deliveries about a month ago because my market is garbage and I'd go an hour without receiving any offers. Tried using Grubhub to order myself some food..maybe this is why we barely received offers, the customers can't even place any
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2021.10.17 23:22 Zestyclose_Fun_4701 Why did God have to create a Hell?
2021.10.17 23:22 kingofzdom The squid games staff costume is the new amongus
2021.10.17 23:22 WookieKyle First ever silver dollar
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2021.10.17 23:22 ShyLamby What color would you say? They change from Grey, to green, to blue, and mixtures of all 3.
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2021.10.17 23:22 nopClip [OTT (1)-1 DAL] Nick Paul ties the game at 1 with a backhand wrister over the glove of Khudobin 15 seconds after the Dallas goal
2021.10.17 23:22 luvbomb_ i wish MT included this in the new video. she says countless times, verbally and written, that she was thirsty asf for her teachers but they didn’t touch her or take advantage of her dog in heat behavior.
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2021.10.17 23:22 Monkeyboi__ 98t
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2021.10.17 23:22 RedXwon_10 Should I buy a Windows or Mac
I was thinking of getting a laptop for college, as I believe many would, but I wasn't sure if I should go for a MacBook or a Windows laptop. Many people recommend a Mac but others say Windows. Just f.y.i I have used both previously and I am not part of the Apple eco-system.
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2021.10.17 23:22 SouthernBorn1992 Butcher Babies, Heidi and Clara 🤘🏼
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2021.10.17 23:22 labinnacotua Who should be the be the next US president?
2021.10.17 23:22 Black_jack_trash Reviewing every SMG4 episode until i forget: Day 140 The (totally) accurate documentary of Mario
You practice your mannerisms into the wall
If this mirror were clearer, I'd be standing so tall
Link to the video: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nTG1Og2Itwg
Luke narrates a very factual documentary about Mario that is very serious and devoid of jokes.
...sort of. This video has a very unique format for this series in general, what with Luke doing a voice-over explaining in a comically dramatic, serious, "documentary" voice that makes this one very fun to watch. And oh yeah! Mario had a pretty messed up childhood! He gets thrown into the streets by his parents, he has a lot of trouble regarding school life, he somehow manages to get a high-end job at Nintendo only for him to get snubbed and lose copyright rights to his own image, and now just lives in the castle... fat.
The jokes that result from the ironic storytelling are pretty unique and great. We have Mario's father treating him like an alien that lays babies, Mario meeting his one and eternal love and more or less everything from Luke's deadpan narration saying silly words or showing equally silly things while he's talking. Genuinely surprised we aren't shown any outtakes where Luke laughs while reading the script.
Overall, this is a pretty unique video that expands on the comical backstory seen all the way in 2011 that still manages to be pretty funny and entertaining throught the whole thing, even if it is a bit short.
Next time... a movie!
This video is now non-canon and that is very upsetting to me
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2021.10.17 23:22 M3gamanz Whats the haps here
2021.10.17 23:22 Ashekyu Weird ass Boletes in NJ. Any ideas?